I failed to understand there was till one more goal i totally neglected, I was wanted to become the best son for my parents to be the pride of my mother. Unfortunately i was so busy with my work that i could not even think of taking some time to spend with my family also the career goals in the design were total failures. Unfortunately my mother died and i couldn't manage to get the opportunity to be with my mother and to support my mother in her last days. So i though that to become a good son should be first goal and soon realized that if i don't work well and if I don't keep 24 our bond with my job this goal is also useless.
Now i think that is not it the goal of my life to work for my country and to do something for the society and i tried a little to become the social worker but i could not find anyone with whom i can really work, i want to work and not want to pretend to show that what i am doing. I think that is useless and to achieve this goal now i think that i should better get in to the politics and should become the minister to serve the nation but when i look at most of the politicians i feel like rather than they serving the society the society is serving them.
I started reading some material on Swami Vivekanand and i think that it will be a great help for me on my path.
Am i unable to find my purpose of life or the thing is that i have more things to do than what is feasible in one life?
Can somebody share his her experiences?
Hello all, I am continuing this blog after long time.
I think all of the "I want to be I have written before" are to some or more extent externally driven. There are some of the odd which we think that "I have to..." and the influence of safeguarding oneself in the situation is so much that people start thinking in the way "This is what I want to". The real thing is one can not want to do something because one has to do it. After the 2 years of experience with 2 MNCs and other experience interacting with the people from various backgrounds and various goals now I realise that "Very few people in this world understand what they want to be" most of the others are only trying to covert the "have to" into "want to".
So what about my search? yes the first aim was the right one. I liked mechanical engineering and I liked studying functioning of machines. Its almost 1.5 year I am not in touch with any of the mechanical engineering subject but till today's date I sometimes amaze people working in the mechanical engineering domain with my analysis of the Mech products. Regarding the Software development I think that software development is the right job for the people who want to face challenging problems. A software developer has less to do with the software engineering knowledge and more with the Problem solving attitude. I have the second quality and Software development job has the challenges.
Now I think that there can be a best thing I can do my combining my knowledge areas that is to work in the field which can offer Mechanical engineering problems to be solved using software. The opportunity to develop products useful for mechanical engineers. And yes again I am talking much about "have to things".
The real challenge is to discover "What I want to be?" the second question which is more difficult to solve and which makes me think of other alternative to the first answer is "Why do I want to do this?".
I think I should start meditating to get the solution for these 2 questions at the same time. I have realised that while meditating we some times really go to the roots of the problems. Because while meditating we know that there is no point convincing my own mind that "A = B" if i repeat it 100 times :).
